This is intense…. I left this blog a year and a month ago because I thought I was going to kill myself. I didn’t though.
I’m almost thriving.
New URL is Hurricanesinhereyes incase anybody wants to come find me.
Yeah….
huh.
-Lydia
August 2012
1 post
July 2011
23 posts
Insomnia blows. But anyways... gonna go try to sleep.
“After all this time, it still seems to me like straight and fast is the only way out- but I choose the labyrinth. The labyrinth blows, but I choose it.”
—Looking for Alaska
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AHHH!!!
Anybody miss me…. no, didn’t think so.
I feel like I’m going to explode. I hate this so much and I hate myself even more and I want to cut right now but I don’t want to make little marks I want to fucking cut my chest out because it hurts so badly and… ugh.
Boom.
Cried myself to sleep for the first time in months last night. And I was sharing a room with my whole family. Better now though, I think.
I keep hearing people I know... and I don't know anyone here. So I'm losing my mind.
And then that awkward moment when you want to cry and you get your first urge to cut in Nicaragua.
And then that awkward moment when you realize what you thought was home is thousands of miles away and this is now your home.
That awkward moment when you want to go home because you just got to a place where you don't speak the language and your bed has dead bugs in it and it's the rainy season where you're at.
Sleeping on planes equals ow!
Well....
This is it.
Bye people.
Hopefully I survive until the next time I’m online.
